Archive - thoughts by bng

14 / rest begets rest

First, I wanted to say thank you for all the warm birthday wishes. I read through them all and I felt moved by your words! Second, I’ve been MIA because…

Jun 8, 2021 •

March 2021

In most of my relationships, I am the space holder. My natural inclination is to attune to the needs of whoever I'm with. That role feels familiar and…

Mar 16, 2021 •

February 2021

12 / the space between apologies

As The Seventh Wave's 2020-2021 Artist in Residence, I created "harmer/harmed", an interactive zine. We did a one-time, limited edition print run. What…

Feb 25, 2021 •

January 2021

11 / still processing

snapshot of 2020 and switching my newsletter over to substack

Jan 28, 2021 •

March 2020

10 / another year older, it could be worse

It’s been awhile. I know I disappeared after promising to keep up with this newsletter, but I promise I haven’t forgotten about y’all. Over the past…

Mar 15, 2020 •

November 2019

09 / looking vs seeing

One month of solo travel felt like three years of living in NYC. When you solo travel, there is nowhere to hide from your deepest fears and…

Nov 30, 2019 •

October 2019

08 / a new season

People demand to know why I’m leaving NYC to take 4 months off in Asia and then a year in New Zealand. Not always, but sometimes they asked in a way…

Oct 24, 2019 •

September 2019

07 / home–bound

Almost a year ago, my first newsletter, “Coming Home,” spoke openly about my resentment towards my younger self and committing to a journey of…

Sep 25, 2019 •

July 2019

06 / dear Kobie,

I love all dogs, but I hope you knew that you were my favorite. I need you to know how much I loved you and how much I hope you lived a happy life. To…

Jul 29, 2019 •

May 2019

05 / (dis)trust

After some internal debate, I decided to put my creative baby Take Up Space on infinite hold. My focus is not on a project's permanence, but instead on…

May 3, 2019 •

March 2019

04 / to just be

“Feb 6, 2019: Yesterday morning I had a panic attack during stand up. My body clammed up. I sped walked to the bathroom to cry. I debated going home. I…

Mar 11, 2019 •

January 2019

03 / yes and no

In 2017 I lost my identity, and the only good aspect about starting from scratch is the liberating freedom you gain. In 2018 I welcomed every…

Jan 14, 2019 •

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